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sixteenth bubble; text/action for pewter. BACKDATED TO THE 2ND/yesterday.

no :(
this is entirely unfair!
ive been waiting to go to the museum in pewter ever since john told me about it on day one
and then jade gave me that book for christmas
and i planned it all out so i could come and see it after all of the fossil things!
this was the plan!
to go to the museum!

this is so stupid!!

by the way the museum was robbed i guess
and now its closed
and i cant go in

kanaya will you go to mt moon with me i guess we can at least TRY to salvage this

people who rob museums are the worst

[ After sulkily lurking outside of the museum for a little while in the morning, Aradia will be drawing up a plan of attack for Mt. Moon, easily found either at the inn or on a bench outside or at a cafe somewhere. She is not the happiest of campers for once, although her mood will not last long at all. As ever she'll match whatever mode of reply she gets. ]

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The day that you stop being morbid is the day that I take cover in fear of the pod people or whatever the hell the Poké equivalent is.

[ and hey. at least Karkat had offered. that's all he can do. ]

Just because you're not angry at him doesn't mean he doesn't think shit is up. Then again, I don't really know myself? It was just clear he was getting the thing for you and he's not the type to do anything of the sort with that amount of determination unless he thought he fucked something up.

Or was challenged to.

[ Perhaps someday if she feels the need to rant for real she will take him up on that. ...Or Kaoru, who offered first and doesn't feel a personal stake in anything in her life except maybe friendship for her specifically. ]

Oh, he forgot we knew one another as kids. And brought up a story because Kanaya made him? And then we just didn't really actually talk after that was done.

[ That's as clear as mud, but she shrugs again. ]

Honestly, I'm not bothering to really think about it too much. I mean, I already did think about things, so I'm just sort of done with that!

[ like he had said. he's not going to push or force Aradia to spill her guts. figuratively, of course. ]

Eh... Sounds like a-typical behavior to me. You've known him longer than me, I think.

Not since I got here. [ That's said fairly quickly, before she takes another bite of her ice cream, sucking on the spoon for a second before sticking it back in the cup to give herself time to explain. ]

I mean, I can't think of one time he's actually brought up an issue between us because he actually wanted to and wasn't forced to do so by someone else, here?

And I actually didn't have much of a problem believing he forgot about the other thing. I may have known Sollux longer than you, but I don't think that means as much as I might have thought it did.

That's what I mean, I guess. He's the type of asshole that would rather drown in his self worth issues and guilt than to suck it up and maybe address them. Really, I have no room to talk. In a sense, I think that Sollux and I have a fuck ton more in common psychologically than either one of us would really like to admit - so don't go and yap about that to him, all right?

[ Karkat has been able to talk to people here. there's also been all that time on the meteor and such. it's given him some perspective on this shit. Karkat is fully aware he has a lot of self worth issues with crippling guilt. some of them he can bring up and talk about. even apologize for...

Sollux seems like a clam. a bit ol clam with no pearl inside. just more clam. ]

Morons like us need that nice, hard shove in the back.

I wouldn't go and tell him something that you said.

[ She's not that sort of girl. ]

The thing is...there's nothing I can do about that. If someone won't believe me about something no matter what I say, there's nothing to be done. And honestly, I'm not sure at this point if I'd like to do anything about it. I'll always support my friends when and how I can, but that's really all I can do.

Basically - I guess I'm saying there wasn't any need for the fish. I'm not angry. I'm okay with it, because...really, I'm okay with change. In every form it comes in. And I think that I've changed, and so has he, and we're just at different places. And that's okay.

I sometimes do miss the girl I was back then, before everything, but I think that's just because I'm nostalgic for what was lost. I miss my lusus and my home - and playing games with Tavros and Terezi and even Vriska. But she and I aren't the same, you know?

You've done what you can... I know I have issues letting shit like that go, but Dave told me that sometimes you've just got to let people do their thing.

[ Karkat cringes. that mess with Terezi... but he had let Rose do all that drinking! thinking back on that now? Karkat laments that he had let that issue go. ]

I'm in no place to give advice about doing nothing. I'll always think that there's at least something I can do to be there for you bulgefondling idiots. Maybe that's just what a Knight does, fuck if I know.

[ but this isn't about him. this is Aradia time. focus on Karkat problems later. ]

Personally... I understand? Like there are times where I really miss what a little shit I was three years ago. Yeah, I miss my Lusus, but I think all of us do. Honestly, I think all of us miss what was, to a certain degree. It's impossible for us to be who we used to be and chasing after that is no different than a woofbeast going after its own tail - most of the time we will never catch it. All we can really do is move forward, you know?

[ That...actually gets an honest smile out of her, if not her typical manic grin. ]

Yes, that's it exactly. I've had a lot of experience in that - letting people and things go. It's just a matter of time.

[ And accepting it. Which she's also had a lot of experience in. That doesn't always make it an easy practice, but... ]

It's hard not to miss the world! But...even so, I think things are going to turn out okay, back home.

[ And if she says that, it's with the confidence of the creepy time player who seemed to always have a handle on something other people didn't know, regardless of the point in their game they were at. ...And, honestly, the confidence of a girl who very much enjoys a miracle of being alive again. ]

...And here, too. I'm glad that you understand, at least.

Of course you have experience with it. I don't think you could have done half of the shit that you did if you had those sorts of attachments - something I think I sort of envy?

[ Aradia has gotten so much done. Karkat can't help but be envious of anyone that's so successful and isn't completely lost. that have purpose, know that purpose, and follow it out. ]

Please, Megido... Maybe things aren't working out all that great for me back home but... [ pauses to sip at his drink. ] Here they are. That's enough.

Well, you sort of learn to let things go after you die! And then come back to life. And, you know. Everything!

[ Eventually she'd gotten to the point of only listening to her own voice, rather than those of the dead.

That was a pretty cool point to be at. ]

So things are going well for you?

[ She's not going to specifically ask about Gamzee, but... ]

Yeah, yeah. I think I will pass on the dying experience. I'm not entirely ready to join the legion of dead players, floating about aimlessly.

[ snorts. Gamzee... Karkat is not sure about Gamzee still. that's something he has honestly just let go of. it... doesn't matter anymore. not really. ]

Think about it. I have a boyfriend - and we can't say that my quadrants were really working out for me back home. Now I've pretty much mastered this shitty place. All my badges have been obtained and most of my team has been maxed out. I've actually accomplished things here.

...Are you saying you never accomplished anything back home?

[ Because she doesn't see that as true, really. Though she...can't comment on the quadrant thing. ]

...I didn't, though. So, yes, that is exactly what I am saying.

...That's patently untrue.

You managed to get everyone to work together in the game, for the period in which that was important. I may have set things in motion for us to play, but...I couldn't have badgered everyone onto the teams, really.

A lot of good that badgering did. People only listened so I'd shut the hell up.

Which is why it worked!

[ thumbs up! ]

...That doesn't really help my self image issues.

Karkat, do you really think you did so badly? You know, I like not listening to anyone but myself now, after so long of not having a choice, but...if I did listen to anyone, it might be the person who said they'd dedicate the team to bringing me back to life if they had the time. Even if that was as an aside!

Regardless of what did or didn't happen - and all of it had to happen, and you realize that! - you always cared about us, in your own Karkat-ish way. And I don't think many of us could have managed that back then. Most of us would have tried to kill the rest of us, you know?

[ he fidgets. Karkat knows this. there's no other way for the alpha time line to continue if things had not happened like they had. but he can't help but feel guilty about so much blood being spilled. ]

I know, I know. But a guy can still feel like shit that he let the team down.

I've never felt like you've let me down.

Really...

Nope! Not a single time I can think of.

[ Are you going to list times she should think of. ]

List 'em. I need a full report with citations included.

...Of all the times you haven't let me down?

[ that's a lot of amusement in her voice, yes. ]

That's basically what I just said.

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